It's a good thing I got a new sketchbook for my birthday, because I just filled up my current one. I went back through it and was amazed at the difference. What encourages your growth as an artist and anything, really, is practice. The beginning of my sketchbook is 11/30/11. The end is today, 5/20/12. But what is sad is the gap. There are 70 pages full, but there is nothing between 1/7/12 and 4/2/12.
It can be known as art block, but this is not always the most accurate title for it. It is a different experience for everyone, but as far as I know, it is always painful. For those who love to draw, paint, or "art" in general, to not do so is frustrating, to say the least.
As far as my experience, it was more an absence of passion than a blockade of inspiration. Until recently, to draw was not a big part of me. Now I have an urge to "art" that grips me until I start sketching furiously.
This probably reflects not only my growth as an artist, but as a person. I am a teenager, and thus I am changing. The official reason is wonky hormones, but it is also a transition into an adult, a development of thought and self. I know that I, personally, am always very much on the emotional spectrum. I laugh and love, I cry and close myself off. Everything just seems better or worse than it would if I was younger or older.
My love of music has also grown immensely, but I will talk about that another day. For now, we will continue the topic of growing as an artist with self-esteem.
"Oh another wonky teenager thing." But everybody has issues with this, some more than others. But ask anybody who is considered an artist, and they will have a story of this awful feeling that you don't have talent, or that your work means nothing to anybody. Or, on the other hand, you could ask an "unartistic" person. It may surprise you that they have a passion for it, but nobody realizes or acknowledges it.
Right now, I am eager to work more on my skills with a branching out. I have always been a traditional artist, (meaning not digital), sketching on paper with a pencil. But this summer, I hope to try other mediums, and my friend and I are planning on doing some collabs to help eachother. (she has been doing this whole arting thing a LOT longer, and she is very talented. I'm quite excited to work with her http://smhatbitches.deviantart.com/)
So the end of this sketchbook gives me more of a sense of closure than before. I think that art is a bigger part of me than it was 3 months ago. And I hope to grow in talent and confidence. My dream is that someday I will be able to touch somebody with something meaningful this way.
See some HUGE inspirations for me, people who have touched me as I hope to touch people, in the links below:
http://wolf-shadowrunner.deviantart.com/ (my sister)
http://moonwild.deviantart.com/ (non biological sister)
http://burdge-bug.deviantart.com/ (ADORE her style and character, she also has a lot of fanart of some of my favorite book series!)
http://yuumei.deviantart.com/ (beautiful artist, her /comics/ have such meaning sjfgahjsgfd no words)
http://tatchit.deviantart.com/ (just...whoa)
http://goldenwolf.deviantart.com/ (Can I do that someday? I hope so)
http://rickgriffin.deviantart.com/ (this guy...funny, an amazing artist, great writer)
http://ninetailedfox350.deviantart.com/ (wonderful artist, even better friend)
http://screwbald.deviantart.com/ (I absolutely love this artist's painting)
http://www.wild-vanilla.com/ (yeah, I can't read any of that either, but ohmygoodness favorite manga style EVER)
Must stop before I flood this with links to amazing artists. I have so many more but must resist.
Wow I could hardly form a coherent thought in my whole meaningful speech dsghjdfgs.
MY SUMMER STARTS ON FRIDAY YAAAAAY.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Shakespeare and Spontaneity
STUFFSTUFFSTUFFSTUFF.Yeah, wrapping up the school year. I've gotten past the stage where I yell at life "NO NO WAIT I'M NOT READY" to the point where I just resolve myself to the events and try not to fall off the treadmill.
So I was walking and talking with my mom and the subject of parenting came up. We discussed how when you first start out (though I do not speak from personal experience) you expect everything to go a certain way and when your kids act up, you think you're doing something wrong. And then you keep worrying but eventually you realize that it's not necessarily your fault, that life just goes that way sometimes.
And I was like...am I thinking about the future the wrong way? Maybe I'm just naive and happy-go-lucky, but all I planned was the fun stuff I wanted to teach my kids and be all spontaneous. Rules never even crossed my mind. Maybe it's just too early for that.
One of the things I would get all excited about was Shakespeare. I have recently gotten REALLY into Shakespeare, because there's simply nothing you can say that he hasn't said better. And it made me remember a book I used to (and still) love, Shakespeare's Secret. In that book, she talks about how when she was a little girl, she would sometimes wake up late at night and hear her dad reading it to himself. He would read to her for a while until she fell asleep to the melodious sound of the words. I want to do that. Even if I don't have kids, I want to do that. I'm sure I'll find some kid to read Shakespeare to, if I have no children of my own.
I also daydream about spontaneity. Sometimes we'll be riding in the van and I'll wish my parents would just pull over and I would get out and run through that green field of grass barefoot. That's pretty much motto (besides the obvious Hakuna Matata) SPONTANEITY. ILOVEIT.
I like books. Bye.
See what I did there? Yeah, I just made a point for my closing.
So I was walking and talking with my mom and the subject of parenting came up. We discussed how when you first start out (though I do not speak from personal experience) you expect everything to go a certain way and when your kids act up, you think you're doing something wrong. And then you keep worrying but eventually you realize that it's not necessarily your fault, that life just goes that way sometimes.
And I was like...am I thinking about the future the wrong way? Maybe I'm just naive and happy-go-lucky, but all I planned was the fun stuff I wanted to teach my kids and be all spontaneous. Rules never even crossed my mind. Maybe it's just too early for that.
One of the things I would get all excited about was Shakespeare. I have recently gotten REALLY into Shakespeare, because there's simply nothing you can say that he hasn't said better. And it made me remember a book I used to (and still) love, Shakespeare's Secret. In that book, she talks about how when she was a little girl, she would sometimes wake up late at night and hear her dad reading it to himself. He would read to her for a while until she fell asleep to the melodious sound of the words. I want to do that. Even if I don't have kids, I want to do that. I'm sure I'll find some kid to read Shakespeare to, if I have no children of my own.
I also daydream about spontaneity. Sometimes we'll be riding in the van and I'll wish my parents would just pull over and I would get out and run through that green field of grass barefoot. That's pretty much motto (besides the obvious Hakuna Matata) SPONTANEITY. ILOVEIT.
I like books. Bye.
See what I did there? Yeah, I just made a point for my closing.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
The Little Things
Weeeee I have no time but there's no time like the present for procrastinating!
So I still want to try more mediums but that's gonna have to wait until I have money to fund the branching out. Hopefully I can experiment this summer. I'm leaning towards focusing on painting. Acrylics, watercolors, FINGERPAINTING, and I think it'd be great fun to try airbrushing, spraypainting, or splatterpainting. oooooh so excited now.
On another topic, I'm going to a local anime con with a friend this Friday. I have not personally ever been to one (nor has she) but it's bound to be an interesting experience. Maybe it'll give a feel for the big Supernatural con my sister and I are attedning with our aunt in October (SCREAMS I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!)
October is going to be such a fantastic month for me. A lot of small, seemingly trivial things are coming up this fall and I'm nearly bursting with excitement. Starting with Mark of Athena, which I will have been waiting a whole reichy year for by then. The new Virals book, the Supernatural con!!!
Still trying to keep up with all the end of the year rush for school. Lots of projects to finish. Projects I should be working on right now actually ^-^' On a lighter note, my birthday's in 16 days, the last day of school in 24, they'll start shipping the orders of 1000 Words in 30.
I've been in a pretty swell mood, considering I'm fit to burst with excitement over various things this month, as well as planning for summer vacation. My brother and I won't get to spend ANY time on the couch this summer if I have anything to say about it.
Talking to my friend about fangirling and trying to suppress it during school hours and the like, I can't help but wonder if perhaps I get too excited over little things. But isn't that supposed to be a good thing? To take pleasure in the little things of life, not take things for granted?
So I still want to try more mediums but that's gonna have to wait until I have money to fund the branching out. Hopefully I can experiment this summer. I'm leaning towards focusing on painting. Acrylics, watercolors, FINGERPAINTING, and I think it'd be great fun to try airbrushing, spraypainting, or splatterpainting. oooooh so excited now.
On another topic, I'm going to a local anime con with a friend this Friday. I have not personally ever been to one (nor has she) but it's bound to be an interesting experience. Maybe it'll give a feel for the big Supernatural con my sister and I are attedning with our aunt in October (SCREAMS I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!)
October is going to be such a fantastic month for me. A lot of small, seemingly trivial things are coming up this fall and I'm nearly bursting with excitement. Starting with Mark of Athena, which I will have been waiting a whole reichy year for by then. The new Virals book, the Supernatural con!!!
Still trying to keep up with all the end of the year rush for school. Lots of projects to finish. Projects I should be working on right now actually ^-^' On a lighter note, my birthday's in 16 days, the last day of school in 24, they'll start shipping the orders of 1000 Words in 30.
I've been in a pretty swell mood, considering I'm fit to burst with excitement over various things this month, as well as planning for summer vacation. My brother and I won't get to spend ANY time on the couch this summer if I have anything to say about it.
Talking to my friend about fangirling and trying to suppress it during school hours and the like, I can't help but wonder if perhaps I get too excited over little things. But isn't that supposed to be a good thing? To take pleasure in the little things of life, not take things for granted?
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